Adieu

What the hell do you think you're doing?
Where are you going?
You're all leaving?
But I'm still breathing!
Each of you said you always wanted honesty.
So, why is it so hard to see?
I swear it's true,
What I've said about all of you.
For dignity's sake I had to tell,
I've had it with all of you waiting in line for me like I'm your personal carousel.
Waiting to take hold of my heart like it's a golden rod - your sound foundation.
You imagine that all I take is one small token of adulation.
Each of you so confident that I'll keep a perfect grin and a flash in my eyes,
As I take you 'round on a fun little ride through your sick and complicated lives.
Oh, how special I must be!
Oh, how much you do love me!
My lips are turning blue.
My eyes have faded because of all of you.
My ears are rotting because of your shallow praise.
And yet it never ceases to amaze,
That when the merry-go-round must stop for maintanance,
None of you has a face of countenance.
Off you go, up and down on a rollercoaster's rails,
Having left your initials in my back with your nails.
The scars force me to remember you, my friend.
Thank you, I'll think of you all until the very end.
Oh, but I'll heal and then the ride can begin.
And you'll all be back again.
You'll find your letters where you last sat.
This will be fun, you're sure of that!
But now the carousel turns so slow.
And the golden rod sways to and fro.
Did you ever think that your grinning horse may fall?
Of course not... Fuck you all.